i wanna be remembered as the girl that changed your life.

"to define who i am, is to love what I'm not"
Now to those that may or may not understand this. You know I may not be the easiest person to get along with or to love, which is why i made that quote up. Because its more then what reaches the surface. People can love the 'idea' of who they think I am, but if they knew who i really was they wouldn't be so loving towards me you could say. I had a discussion with one of my bestfriends last night before my meds knocked me out and i realised how cold i can really be as a person. Like, i could turn my back on someone if they do me wrong as simple as saying hello to them for the first time. I hope i made a good impact on her last night, and hope that she listened to what i was saying. I guess i just feel very protective of those that i love or care about you could say.
I don't like seeing them in pain or any sorts of stress, because I'd feel Helpless if i couldn't do anything to fix them. But all the same, for this friend in particular she needs to be a little more strict on herself. She gives in waaaaay too easily. It makes her morals seem as though, well, like she hasn't really got any. And i told her that.
If its one thing anyone should know, it's that i don't fxck around, I tell you how it is, my opinion (whether required or not) will be said if you choose to listen, it's your choice. But I've always got your back if you do good by me.